Sunday, July 27, 2008

Shiny Tin Roof

White bricks crumble noiselessly beneath us.
Only strong foundations fall upwards.
We blindly climb
Towards a shiny tin roof.

Or something like that – its day seven and I was craving to get some poetry out. A puny stanza beats blogging all over beach balls. The boredom is infiltrating and we’ve essentially climaxed to insanity. We roll on the ground like zoo animals weakened from laughter, and sweat out fast food. I can string together a run on sentence composed entirely from Last Student Standing Slang terminology and inside jokes. It is on the verge of pathetic, yet I can’t say I’ve ever laughed as much. I don’t think I could ever be bored again after this. We get high on some type of placebo effect – like every small cubic foot of cement is a shot of tequila. We are bathing in childhood thoughts as we rack our brains for forms of entertainment from what seems a past life. This is melodrama, I realize, but still, not terribly off.

We have spent almost 168 hours consecutively together and I probably know more about my new roommates than I do about myself. We had all been debating whether or not this was a life-altering experience. And I have to say, my conclusion is yes.

Tomorrow I inject my medicine. Everyone wants to watch. It’s funny to me because my mother used to have to chase me around the house screaming to get me to go to the doctors because I was afraid I might have to get a shot. And now I administer myself – I guess if you find a cause that means enough to you, you can surpass that mental block.

I guess for now I will pose as a catalyst for some type of battle of projectiles (including, but not limited to pillows, beach balls, bean bags and apparently now air mattresses).

The plot is always thickening.

4 comments:

Lydia said...

wow hun! they get deeper and deeper as the dayz go by. today i went to edgefest and all day i was thinking of u. and wished u were there with me. i saw brian cody there today and i told him to tell u that i miss u and that i said hi. i hope he tells u in the morning.

i am gonna come up tomarrow and vist u, with my friend like i did last monday. i pray every night for u to stay strong and hang in there. and i also try (when its not storming or cloudy out) to wish upon the stars that u win.

i am rooting for u and cant wait till i see u again. i am counting down the days where we can go out and party. also i bet that i am the only one that comments ur blogs everyday. u should most def save these and print them out after ur done with this. They would make a great keepsake!

i kno i am writing this in a manner that u will read this soon. lol haha! i just think of it as my daily text or my online journal.

today i got wasted, got my self banged up a bit and all mudd! so i am gonna take some pain killers so i dont wake up with a massive hangover. although last sunday i didn't have one so we will see.

i ended up not go to SC2. Funkmaster went but i am gonna make the new boss take me to COC in aug if i can.

Good Night and Sweet Dreams!

♥Alwayz
Lydia

Hope said...

Hey Taz Kept it up,I have A friend just like u but the thing he was born a boy but should have been a female.i'm rooting for u to win.

Unknown said...

yo tazzle we came to see you today..it was so cute you didn't know what to do and you were just pointing at the sign..just classic taz..oh by the way jilted jon thinks you look cute lol anyway im glad we came to see you Rena was really happy to come along..then we went to red lobster afterwards and made friends with the waiter it was fun anyway you looked different i wish we could have stayed longer but we didnt want to get you in trouble..you looked good.. strong..and then you started playing with two balls whcich is again--cute

Well hang in there! i'll be back i loved how peace and quiet it was at that mall..

See ya toots!!

lup

Anonymous said...

hey, i just wanted to let you know that i think is awesome you are who you are...im ftm too...and my friend works for mocaisas and called me the second she found out you were in the contest. she is always trying to make me aware im not alone in my situation. You are an inspiration to me.

When i read the part about you injecting...it reminded me of how when i was younger id try to pay off my drs with my allowance money to not give me a shot. And now i self inject too. I guess you're right when you say if you want something bad enough you push yourself over the mental block.

Id love to meet you sometime on the outside haha but good luck youre going great!

-Caiden