Sunday, August 17, 2008

I prefer 2

I find it interesting that I write these blogs blindly every night, completely unaware if they are read by anyone other than my parents and some friends. I sincerely hope those who do read them understand that the magnitude of this experience cannot be expressed through random web cam angles, various on-air interviews and even daily posts via Internet, which supposedly capture the contestant’s innermost thoughts.
It would be ridiculous to assume that even if contestant A were reminiscing with contestant B about each and every realization they felt during this experience, that they might be able to grasp it more than partially.
It would be similar to having A and B ride a roller coaster, (A detests thrill rides and B loves them but ate too much for lunch) and then have them discuss on a given day how the amusment park adventures went. We each change every moment, learn every day and are only permitted to view this world through our own set of eyes. Sometimes I feel like it would be more benificial if we could use one eye to see things from someone eles’s perspective, hear things twice in slow motion and speak only after our brain decided that what we had to say was either critically constructive or far-fetchedly kind.
You may protest, “It’s impossible to always be nice.” And I agree and it may even get boring. But that is no excuse for why we should be so much more apt to believe we are always correct. “Seek first to understand rather than to be understood.”
And after considering all of that; who reads these postings and what it means for me and even my fate regarding this contest, I think of corny things I could write to sway the general public. Just kidding. The power of groups can be both dangerous and enormous and I would never take that risk in fear that someone may miss my sarcasm (due to the lack of tone in my typing) and interpret my swing at humor for conceitedness.
So after considering that, I think everyone should know what they would say if they were granted ten minutes to addres the world. I hope that everyone would think of what they would say, and that they would be able to come up with something that took ten minutes. I hope that after discovering what he or she stands for, that they would constantly remind themselves of how they could exemplify their values. To lead by example. And I hope that no one would consider this blog preacher-ific because I’m going off on a tangent, but that they realize if I did indeed have some way to communicate to the masses, that it would probably include something along these lines. Which leads me to this:

2 as in also
like also with youor also too muchas in too manybecause temperance is a virtue. 2 as in bias in bi focals like 2 ways of looking at things like bi sexuals only rimmed with more structure and less peeping.2 as in peace but not piece of mind or piece of anything else because this too is too sexual (no not bi sexual) simply too sexual to be a virtue. peace like two fingers world peace one love, for you and me, so two together.2 as in preparatory of infinitive, like to dance to kiss or to rain too hard. (which is a double standard)2 as in the number like a magic number too magical to notice2 as in existence like to be or not to be, or maybe as in nonexistence. as in 2D.2 hemispheres divided into two colors or two notions too unmagical to notice that i too am too important not to exude fortitude (which also is a virtue) to save all those too shy not towith 2 hands up two fingers on each pointing to the skyto wait to wonder to demand


So word, take it how you will. Until tomorrow.

-Tazby The Scrivener

4 comments:

myxnamexisxducki said...

Taz,
I love to just read what you write, and just let it all sink in. It always has a deeper meaning then when you first take it all in, but once you read it and take a minute to think about what you are trying to say, theres such a deeper meaning behind it :o)

You are such a talented writer and you seem like a really down to earth person and i really like that about you

I really hope to see you make it to the final 2...actually, i would LOVE to see you make it to the very end and walk away...actually DRIVE away with the prize :o)

sandybeach921 said...

Taz,
(this is lydia's mom)
Just a short note to let you know how proud of you Iam!
Your doing something outstanding, while difficult at times im sure, but well worth it in the end.
Im a firm believer that if its meant to be it will happen.
Im crossing my fingers and saying a prayer for you, I believe your motives for this win are the most worthwhile I have heard.
You have taken on a huge undertaking to be who you are, and I commend you for that, always be true to your self, as you are the only one, who lives your life day in and day out.

Just remember
"If you can dream it, you can do it."
- Walt Disney

Miss Ash said...

Taz I'm rooting for you :) Your such a good person & a very powerful writer. I admire you for that. Keep strong & fight til the end. I hope you drive away with that prize!

Lydia said...

8-18-08

hey hunny. i hope u like the hat i made u and i hope they liked the sign. btw micheal phelps made history.
well out for a cig and going to bed

i will bring u back something. i will check ur blog early in the morning

love ya and miss ya GOOD LUCK AND BEST WISHES

♥ALWAYZ
Lydia