Since feeling is first

What day is it even?

“Since feeling is first, who pays any attention to the syntax of things?” (E.E.)

I hate this game and I love it. I know nothing about this game.

“I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream.” (Van Gogh).

To both accurately and effectively describe this morning’s elimination would cause my eyes to well, stinging with salt, and I would be unable to continue typing.
Why don’t I just leave it at:
I hated to see Julie go. For too many reasons to list. I learned a lot from her; about her, me, people like her and people like me. I understand that our paths crossed for a reason, and while I believe she deserved this prize we’re all working towards, I trust that with her attitude towards life she will find happiness. Whatever it entails for her. I hope she knows there are no hard feelings. I want to talk to her in an atmosphere with no microphones and hear what she truly has to say. I can’t wait to do so.

The day was lethargic. Everyone napped – I dozed maybe twice for twenty minutes tops, but was unable to fall into any meaningful sleep. We stayed up pretty late last night and got up early today obviously. So hopefully tonight I will get a good rest.

Rumor has it that tomorrow’s reward will be very exciting. I hope everyone can benefit from it, and I hope we succeed. We were spoiled today with access to the Olympic games and pizza for dinner. Ah the simple things in life.

Then throughout the evening it seemed to be visitor’s hours. Meant a lot to see those custom t-shirts, the NBN crew – much love . Ally of course…

And then this:
“Be who you want!
Say what you feel!
Because those who mind don’t matter!
And those who matter don’t mind!”

- Dr. Seuss (Compliments of Lydia – thank you!)


Tomorrow I’ll try to be more of a writer.

- Theo Adam Zegers
(AKA Flirtatious taz)


Quick shout out to my man Phelps! Congrats!